Kyrie’s Rants & InSaNiTiEs

Archive for September 2008

Stolen from Twitchy Knitter

The Rules:

a. Type your answer to each of the questions below into Flickr Search.
b. Using only the first page, pick an image.
c. Copy and paste each of the URLs for the images into fd’s mosaic maker.

The Questions:
1. What is your first name?
2. What is your favorite food?
3. What high school did you go to?
4. What is your favorite color?
5. Who is your celebrity crush?
6. Favorite drink?
7. Dream vacation?
8. Favorite dessert?
9. What you want to be when you grow up?
10. What do you love most in life?
11. One Word to describe you.
12. Your flickr name.

Craig’s Results

1. Tai Shan, 2. Arabic Calligraphy #1: Allah, 3. Red Leaf on Asphalt, 4. Beautiful old lady from Darap(Sikkim) village, 5. Redheads…, 6. Fin de Siècle Lolcat, 7. Perfection, 8. Raspberry – Swirl Cheesecake, 9. I Love New York, 10. Feeling blue…color 🙂, 11. Passion!!, 12. Shadow theater in Greece

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Stole from Twitchy Knitter

The Rules:

a. Type your answer to each of the questions below into Flickr Search.
b. Using only the first page, pick an image.
c. Copy and paste each of the URLs for the images into fd’s mosaic maker.

The Questions:
1. What is your first name?
2. What is your favorite food?
3. What high school did you go to?
4. What is your favorite color?
5. Who is your celebrity crush?
6. Favorite drink?
7. Dream vacation?
8. Favorite dessert?
9. What you want to be when you grow up?
10. What do you love most in life?
11. One Word to describe you.
12. Your flickr name.

My results 🙂

1. kyrie’s new wig ^^, 2. The Cake, 3. Laurel Mountain – Convict Lake Purple Sunrise, 4. ♫ YO Yo yo, there’s no place like a green penthouse… so i told the genie i wanted to be well hung. ^o^ ♫ nah… wildlife from singapore♫, 5. Once in a Blue Moon, 6. Drinks Anyone?, 7. Bali Ha’i, 8. IMGP3015, 9. River Typewriter, No. 2, 10. Ailsa Craig, 11. Defiant!, 12. The “Mist” in “Maid Of the Mist”

So I the doctor asked me to take 3 days off after the surgery which of course landed on the days that I was supposed to work. So I’ve been home…trying to stay sane for the last few days.  I get to go back to work on Saturday and oddly I’m only kinda looking forward to it. I really don’t want to deal with everyone there and I know I’m going to have to and that they won’t just leave the subject alone and let me be.

So in the mean time I’ve been working on the shawl that I’m going to give away. It’s turning out pretty nice I think.

Juliette was nice enough to model it for me. It’s not quiet big enough to fit the whole Sheepkin family yet but I’m sure it will get there soon enough. It’s been fairly therapeutic to work on the shawl, the feeling of the yarn sliding through my fingers has helped more then I had first thought it would.

I’ve also started writing again and I am currently up to about 7000 words on my story. I have no idea when it will be finished and I probably won’t mention it when it is finished.  So I’m staying busy and trying to keep my sanity. And really only succeeding a little.

I didn’t think I would want to talk about this, but I find after a bit of time to think and deal that it’s not as heart wrenching as I thought it would be to talk about this. I just want to say thank you to everyone that sent their support and love it is greatly appreciated.

Craig and I are doing okay, we are both dealing with this as best we can.

My mom said something that really helped me. She told me that it’s okay to grieve because she was a baby and that I didn’t have to be strong. I needed to grieve and then let her go.  When she said that it made a lot of sense to me and I felt like a big weight was lifted off my heart. I have decided to look at this as not the right time. Who knows if it will ever be the right time. Craig says if we want to try later we can…I flux between yes and no on trying again. I think it is something I won’t decide on for awhile and at the very earliest not for the next six months.

The doctor says that I lost the baby just after the Ultrasound 2 weeks ago.  That she didn’t grow at all after that.  They told me that my placenta was covering my cervix and that 99% of the time it would move away from the cervix and that there was nothing to worry about.  Only that if it didn’t I would have to have a C-Section.

She chose not to tell me that it may also cause the baby not to get enough nourishment and they think that is what happened. There was no heartbeat at the ultrasound, which was devastating, but not as upsetting as the picture on the ultrasound. I don’t think I’ll ever forget that, it just was not right in anyway.

I had surgery today and it was blessedly unconscious. I vaguely remember being wheeled into the OR and that I really really don’t ever want to go back there again. It’s cold and I really really hate the cold nothing good happens when its cold.

So tomorrow I’m putting away the things, and then I am going to use the yarn for the blanket and make some shawls out of them. For the Wrapped in Care Project. I don’t want the yarn but I also don’t want it to go to waste, and at least this way it will help comfort someone in need of it. The above link will take you to the Rainey sisters blog and you can find the links for the Wrapped in Care project on the upper right hand side of the screen under the Charitable Knitting section.

This program will allow mothers who have suffered the death of an infant to be wrapped in the warmth of shawls during a very traumatic and painful time. In addition, if the mother is not discharged yet, they can also provide a far more beautiful background than a hospital gown for pictures that will be treasured for a lifetime.

I’m not going to talk about Craig because I am respecting his privacy.

Don’t want to talk about, just letting people know.

I finally have felt more like myself and I even had enough ambition to start a baby blanket. I’m pretty excited about the blanket but…I used fingering “statsh” yarn instead of Dk wt, so I will be working on this blanket ALOT longer then I had anticpiated when I started it. According to the pattern I should be about half done….Luckily I have lots of this yarn so it’s not a problem but as you can see from the picture there is no way I am even close to half done.

My plan is to have it go from dark green to lt green and then lt blue to dark blue kind of like a flower…we’ll see how it turns out. If I don’t like it I can always donate it to charity and start over…with Dk weight. lol I’ve been feeling pretty good and have my next appointment next week.

The Lost Boys were playing with the sheep the other day and posed for this picture. They were so excited about it and specficly asked that I put it up on the blog. So here it is the Sheep Train…

Today we went to the doc and had the 1st Trimester ultrasound done. We got some alien baby photos and found out that everything is very normal and the baby looks very healthy. You can see the nose ridge which means no Downs Syndrome and as well the fluid was normal along her back which is another sign of no Downs.  Also you can see all the baby’s fingers, but the toes were a bit blurry. They checked the heart and everything was beating and normal there and they could see all 4 ventricles which means no heart defects. We got to listen to the heartbeat and it sounded kind of fast to me, but the lady said it was normal. Plus I was kinda of excited and sure that was coming through to baby.

Seeing the baby made it all so much more real, and soothed a lot of concerns because they showed me where the placenta was attached to my stomach. It was just all very amazing and undescriable at the same time.

Yesterday a friend brought over a stoller for us and they’ll be giving us a car seat thier son has grown out of.  I haven’t really been craving anything that I notice, but I’m sure if you asked Craig he would have a whole different story on the subject, due to the donut run at 10pm one night.

I haven’t been doing any knitting at all, but I have only started feeling more myself in the last two days. Before that every time I ate I felt ill, but in the last two days that hasn’t happened and I feel like I am getting more energy back. I am almost done with my 1st Trimester and only have 3 more days left before I’m on to the 2nd.

Craig relized that today and suddenly seemed alot more paniced that there were only 6months left. But we’ll have the time we need I’m sure, or if we don’t then we’ll figure it all out. I’m not worried about it at all.

In the next picture you can actually see the baby sticking out her tongue, the nurse pointed an arrow just to help you see it. 🙂